It is so hard to remember we are loved
going from full to empty in a single sigh
our mouths full of why we want to leave
and how we long for home
taking turns on the front steps
facing the future
knowing we get to come back in
for now
It is so hard to remember we are loved
going from full to empty in a single sigh
our mouths full of why we want to leave
and how we long for home
taking turns on the front steps
facing the future
knowing we get to come back in
for now
I ended up squeezing 7 lemons and pulverizing 3 hands of ginger pouring it through the cold brew strainer
unhinged,
my jaw,
until it dropped to the floor
46,000 steps from the west to the east and then back
Fuck the patriarchy
A man who called himself King Daniel stopped me on the street and insisted I take £20 and buy something nice for my mother
Fuck the patriarchy
the phrase “no problem at all”
Fuck the patriarchy
Plain scone with jam and clotted cream
I woke up early
found the cat curled up beside me,
ten years of inching closer
this is my most mutual love story
but as it goes,
love isn't something I have always been able to speak
something I never witnessed unless on TV
I thought I found it on the top bunk, in the bathroom, in the back seat of the bus
and yes sure it takes self-love or trust or complete disregard for all of the above
Now here I am teaching the words to how we feel,
how to express yourself
how to try to mend
how to deal
but shit really me
the fucking queen of goodbye, the cold shoulder, eye roll, never reply
love hands down is what it is all about, our actions, the things that we say,
being there, and shying away
I find the most important thing you can do is listen, remember, and be truly you
but let me digress
something happened
yet it seems has always been
I noticed it
hearing them say my name
and how all of a sudden
I fucking love holding hands
wanting things to stay the same
while uprooting and completely change
It feels like
things are never going to plan
but
I don't want to talk about the mistakes
I do want to talk about what parts that I've missed
try to put together the parts of you I don't get to know
and then there is
kissing
the good kind
the slow
the thing that continues to rot all this good
the fear of it ending
even though all things do
and they should
I guess there is always
that maybe this time
it won't
I don't even remember the half of it
allegedly
vast swathes of grainy misspeakings
eggs floating, all the yellow covered up
this sweet little half-life
shhhhhh... she's thinking
I
want
undertones
my fingers interlace behind you
the female desire to not listen to myself
metastasize me, honey,
parallel erosion
I
want
you
to understand
it's a mouthful, the clasp broke
shouldering in her own defense
needless to say
you know what
now that I found it
the curves how they go in and then out it
makes me feel
like we both should be shouting
we both should be making time
carving it out
now
my hand
even likes holding
the parts I hoped
yours wouldn't go to
but it's slow
the way everything falls off
a little more
feels good
too good
like no one should know